I
love you
Do
not pay attention to the serenity in my face
My
passion for you still rage inside
I
give it over to God hundred times a day
A
hundred more times it returns to me
I
love you differently nowadays
With
more patience,
endurance
and very little expectation
The
father has been perfecting
His
love through me
I
think that I am ready now to really love you
The
only way God intended
Unconditionally
I
have cried more times
because
of you in the past months
than
I have cried my entire adult life
Still,
I love you and want you in my life
I
have asked God to take away
the
feelings of love and the
emotions
He
has taken the dependency emotions,
the
anger of not
being loved by you
But
still my love for you
remain
strong, persistent
I
have very little feelings left,
but
a lot more love for
you.
I
awake at night
and
pray for you and yours
I
pray for joy, for hope for protection,
for
love for
mercy,
and
whatever your needs
may
be at the time
I
missed sharing with you.
I
have grown so much
in
these past months,
and
sometimes I
am afraid
you
will not find the woman
you
loved when you come back
There
are some definite changes,
but
the core is still the
same
I
still love you,
I
still want to be your wife,
and
have
your children.
It’s
time for a revisit.
Mi
querencia
Where
the sky meet the earth
Where
the waves meet the sun
Where
our secret is safely kept
Where
lost souls are restored
Where
happiness chases solitude
Where
the past have no power
Where
love rules
Where
there is hope for new beginnings
Where
I am a saint
Where
you are my endless river
Oh
that thing called love!
Once
Twice
More
Often
Lately
I
have lost at love
Sometimes
Many
times
Seldom
Lately
I
have won
At
love
I
need a muse
Would
you
Could
you
Consider
it? I will get back to you.
Let’s
walk down memory lane…
Do
you remember?
The
first time
We
cried together
Was
it on your first trip away?
Did
you cry for me or with me?
Did
your heart break like mine?
When
you step out the car
Did
your soul depart from you
and
rested with mine
Babe…Do
you remember
the
second time we cried together
We
were in your car vowing
eternal
love to each other
if
only I knew then what I know now,
I
would have engraved that moment,
stop
time
and made you mine forever
Did
you know then that
you
would break every promise?
To
think
You
called me your bride,
Your
treasure
And
I felt blessed among women
because
my prince
Had
finally come for me
Nasi…do
you remember that night
How
we held hands and cried
For
no apparent reason
We
just felt so close to something divine
Were
you just saying goodbye
Did
you know you would forsake me?
Darling
do you remember
The
last time we cried together
I
can’t! There’s been so many times
when
I have cried alone
lately
But
nothing can beat that night….
That
You
chose conventions over me
The
night …
You
chose pride over me
The
night…
You
chose you over me
I
did not cry because I did not know
it
was our last chance
to cry together
Babe,
have you cried lately?
I
have.
So
much so that my cries are tearless
Babe,
will we cried together again soon
Soon
when our hands we’ll meet again
When
we’ll pledge our love again
When
we’ll vow to hold on no matter what
I
can’t wait to cry together again!
Can
you?
How
do you feel lately?
The
Haiku’s
A
heart in mourning
Bitter
Created
in hell
Hushed
in the absent air
Unforgiving
hurt
Lost
in lust
Forlorn,
love cry
Searching
for lost habitat
Find
long lost habit
Tell
me!
Do
you
Love
me still?
If
you do
Stay
awhile
At
least until I numb the pain
Really
if you care
Give
me a sign to hang on to
At
least until I find
an
antidote to this venom
Seriously,
if you have ever loved anyone
Fain
compassion for this broken one
At
least until I replace
the
fake with the real
If
you do
Speak
at last
At
least I will be able to explain
to
my posterity why you
left,
why
you swore love and gave grief,
why
you have crushed my
illusions?
Why
do you revile the woman
who
loves you like no other?
Why
are you so anti-love?
Really,
have you been
burned my love?
Was
it just lust for you?
Common
say something at last.
Defend
yourself!
Give
me
something else to write about.
I
am waiting
Listen,
as you well know
Patience
is not one of my qualities
Nevertheless,
I am waiting
I
am not sure
if
I am waiting for you or on you
I
am waiting
Sweet,
do you think I look well waiting?
My
friends’ comments are very tedious
Do
you know what they are saying?
Well…some
say that you don’t love me anymore
Others…say
that you have replaced me
Still…others
say
It’s
a matter of time
before
you’ll come running back
Do
you know what I think?
Actually,
I won’t tell you
You
don’t deserve my confidence
But
you’ll see how soon you
can’t
stand being without me
I’m
waiting!
Just
wait for me!
Why
is it always about you?
And
You
pleaded
You
begged
Asking,
demanding loyalty
And
You
required
You
inspired
Transparency,
honesty
And
I
gave
I
cave
Senselessly,
hopelessly
And
I
loved
I
provided
Clarity,
fidelity
And
You
promised
You
swore
Passion,
compassion
And
I
believed
I
received
Shame,
disgrace
And
You
Shameless,
blameless
And
I
Grieving
resisting
Loving,
waiting
Believing
expecting
The
Word said!
Remember
not
Not
the hurt
Nor
the anguish
Remember
me
In
patience
In
longsuffering
Have
peace
Remember
not
Not
the past
Nor
the failures
Remember
me
In
the present
In
the moment
Have
joy
And
the world said
Escape
Erase
Sever
Cut
him off
Abort
the memories
Pass
over the pain one last time
Evict
him from your life once and for all.
Make
him pay
Replace
him once and for all
A
friend, named deliverance, told me
Don't
you know?
Even
if the fig tree never yields fruits
Love
is on His way and He's always on time
In
spite of how you feel
Vengeance
belongs to Him
Enter
into His peace
Remember
not the things of old
Apply
His wisdom
to
your wounds don't you know
New
things are on the way
Count
your blessings
Even
if your eyes can't yet see them,
for
deliverance is on
the way
Ishi
He’s
my Master
Sun
of Righteousness
Husband
of the husbandless
Irreplaceable
love
Sweet
Surrender
You
have pursued me day and Night
Quietly
tugging at my heart
Wheeling
me in with all your Might
So
tonight
I
yield not in part
For
today, I have gained insight
I
will no longer walk by sight
I
will no longer fight
For
you have proven your might
I
surrender to you, my Knight
So
many times…I’ve missed the mark
But
tonight
I
see the light
I
may not feel quite all right
Yet
I know you are right
I
have not always been smart
Getting
to know you
Perfect
Love
Turned
into
Perfect
Hate
How
cynical
But
How
true
For
those who have never known you
The
attributes of love
Patience,
kindness, loyalty
Never
jealous, nor envious
Never
boastful, nor prideful
Never
selfish, nor rude
Does
not demands its own way
It
is neither irritable nor touchy
Doesn’t
hold grudges
It
is just, and it is truthful
Always
expect the best
It
is long-suffering and merciful
Love
is sacrificial...
it's
giving up your right to be right
It
is walking by faith
instead
of walking by sight
Love
is a person
Enduring
in kindness
In
loving mercy
Full
of compassion
Faithful
to the faithless
Father
to the fatherless
Righteous
and abounding in grace
That
is Love.
He
is the one who said
"I
love you with an eternal love"
“I
will establish you,
and
you will be reestablished"
"Do
not fear for I am with you"
He
also says”
I have engraved you
on
the palm of my hand”
His
Name is Love
He
is Adonai Yeshua,
The
Morning Star
Char
shalom
The
Lion of Judah
The
Lord of Host
The
great I AM
God
Almighty
Three
in One
Alpha
and Omega
Aleph
and Vav
He
is God
He
is love
Help
It
is twirling too fast
Make
it stop at once
Slow
it down
Take
the doubts away
Move
the mountain of pain
Please
make it stop now
When
love flourished
MEET
ME half way
Meet
me half way
In
the dawn of a dream
Lead
me near the bay
Hold
me dear to stay
Meet
me half way
In
a sunny beam
Lead
me far away
In
your eyes ’ray
Meet
me today
To
complete a dream
Make
it all okay
Now
please let us pray
That
our day
Will
never see decay
Meet
me right away
I
find
Not
one word
Just
feelings
Not
a play of words to portray
the
beauty of surging desires
Just
feelings
Deep,
secluded, so mine
Not
a poetic verse that could
envelope
your
heart and make you mine
Just
feelings
No
prose that could express the
soul
subdued
emotion your voice harkens
Just
feelings
Truly
inspired, faithfully cared for,
and
so truly thine
Suffice
To
see your eye’s gleam
It
is happiness
Suffice
To
hear your voice beam
It
is bliss
Suffice
To
know the illusion of your dream
It
is my delight...
That
light in your eyes,
that
glee
in your voice,
those
dream that we share
That
love that we know...
it
is all
too sufficient for me
Long
ago
Love
became mine
Again
a third night
Love
came
Wash
his feet, drink my wine
Again
a second night
Love
came late
Brought
me a shrine
Long
ago
Love
became my knight
Our
mind, body, spirit were
intertwine
To
create a perfect line
Where
you and I are one
I
will pursue you
Hopping
one day, you will tire
I
will pursue you
Knowing
my quest, is noble
I
will pursue you
Lending
you my voice
I
will pursue you
Giving
your cause fate
I
will pursue you
Leaving
all else aside
I
will pursue you
Knowing
that those who seek always
find
Love
that doesn’t
cost a thing is no love at all
God’s
love
Cost
Him His only Son
Christ’s
love
Placed
Him
On
a cross
If
you ever wonder
about my love
And
what it cost me?
Just
read my poems
You’ll
know!
I
remember
Too
often when I see lovers holding hands
Sharing
a kiss
I
remember
When
late at night
the
desire to share my day arise
When
my phone rings
I
remember
Each
time I hurt
And
need my friend
I
remember
Last
night when I dreamt you were near
To
awake to an empty bed
I
remember
Every
time I menstruate
and
the pain comes on strong
I
missed the prayers for the pain to go away
I
remember
Everyday
at twelve
when
I listen to a radio message that
You
should be hearing too
I
remember every evening
when
focus on the family comes on
And
you are no where to share the views
I
remember
When
I see you walk in a room
Hoping
you'll come near but suddenly
I
remember
You
are no longer in my sphere
No
longer part of my repertoire
No
longer my habibi
No
longer my loving friend
I
remember
The
promises of God
And
remember to walk by faith not by sight
Then
I remember
Just
how much better it will all be
When
I can remember the hurt,
the
pain without the emotions
I
will simply remember you
In
love with grace with hope in Love
That
you will be back
Soon
enough
I
love you
Do
not pay attention to the serenity in my face
My
passion for you still rage inside
I
give it over to God hundred times a day
A
hundred more times it returns to me
I
love you differently nowadays
With
more patience,
endurance
and very little expectation
The
father has been perfecting
His
love through me
I
think that I am ready now to really love you
The
only way God intended
Unconditionally
I
have cried more times
because
of you in the past months
than
I have cried my entire adult life
Still,
I love you and want you in my life
I
have asked God to take away
the
feelings of love and the
emotions
He
has taken the dependency emotions,
the
anger of not
being loved by you
But
still my love for you
remain
strong, persistent
I
have very little feelings left,
but
a lot more love for
you.
I
awake at night
and
pray for you and yours
I
pray for joy, for hope for protection,
for
love for
mercy,
and
whatever your needs
may
be at the time
I
missed sharing with you.
I
have grown so much
in
these past months,
and
sometimes I
am afraid
you
will not find the woman
you
loved when you come back
There
are some definite changes,
but
the core is still the
same
I
still love you,
I
still want to be your wife,
and
have
your children.
